After I took several lessons with therapist, I found out the issue about my ๐ก anger. I know angry nothing good to me now and future. Angry only waste my time and let me stuck in the mud. The therapist let me think about it .After long time thinking. I know I really donโt need to in the mud. I and the victim๏ผ the hurt is enough. I should came out of the mud. Although a little be difficult ๐. I try to treat myself ๐ good. To eat well, sleep well, and exercise regularly. The anger still sometimes pop up, I accept I have that anger feeling but just remind myself not to long. Moreover, I try to build rewards pathway for myself. Exercise can be reward, eat cake can be reward. Read the book I like can be reward.
The situation will not change in one day. I peaceful to accept it.